Woman at the Well

The woman at the well story in the Bible is so close to my heart. I could see myself as the woman in many aspects of life, I have heard the story many times growing up and only until a few months ago, did I allow myself to be healed from my past. I don't need that life anymore, I have met my love, my Father God who loves me unconditionally, who found me destitute, destrought, broken. He healed me. I know He is still working on this woman, making me, molding me. I know this life isn't without its hurts, its sadness, but I know the God that met me at my darkest time, the one who changed my life will never leave me!!

Heartache

Father God, I come with a heavy heavy heart. I want to curl up in your lap or lay at your feet I need to feel your comforting arms. I need to hear you say that everything is going to be okay, I need to hear you say that every heartache, every tear is worth it. This life is so difficult and hard, I don't know what you are trying to teach me Father, so in this teaching moment, I pray you will give me your strength and I pray you will protect my heart. I know you have a plan and it's far more than what I see right in this moment, I just need to feel your comfort and peace today Father God.


The dictionary defines heartbreak as ‘crushing grief, anguish, or distress.’ But a broken heart may be brought on by a myriad of causes such as disappointment in a child's lifestyle, loss of possession, loss of job, etc. Whatever the cause, the pain of a broken heart can be enormous.
I find rest in knowing only a child of God can experience complete recovery because only we have access to the power of the Spirit of God who alone “heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds" (Psalm 147:3).
I think about Job and the heartache he endured . In one day he lost his children, almost all worldly possessions, his health, and his means of livelihood. He responded "Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head and fell on the ground and worshiped. And he said, ‘Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD'" (Job 1:20-21). He was heartbroken yet, he worshipped God and remained faithful. Although he had doubts as to God’s goodness in these terrible events, through them he grew closer to God through God’s revelation of Himself (Job 42:1-5). Job learned what all believers can learn through heartbreak—God is faithful and good and trustworthy.
God never failed one of His children when they cried out to Him, and He will not fail the heartbroken Christian who cries out to Him today, He will NOT fail me. He may not answer me in the time I want, but I know he  answers according to His perfect will and timing and, while I wait for the answer, His grace is sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9).

I waited

I waited, and you never showed

I needed you, and you weren't there

I long for your direction

and you are silent.

Why aren't you talking to me

Why aren't you answering

I am crying out, my soul is crying out

why can't you hear me?

I hear you...finally

you say that you are here

you are silent...you are teaching

I need to trust you, you say.

Show me how to trust you

you are here...I feel you

You are leading, and guiding

help me trust you more.

God is faithful

In reading my devotion this morning "God is faithful" there were two questions to reflect on.

1. From your experiences in life, what do you know to be true about God?

~I know that in times of trouble, in times of heartache, in times of turmoil that God is faithful. He has always been there for me, right there holding my hands. He never said that He would wave a magic wand and everything would fall into place. If we look to Him in our darkest moments and keep turning our face to Him, He will be faithful! He will be faithful to work in us to make us men and woment that we are called to be. Even thougth He may not make everything instantly okay, He will however be there to guide us and help us through our circumstances.

2. How has God showm himself to be faithful in the past?

~God has shown me how to truly trust Him when my marriage fell apart, I was faced with being a single mother and trying to find my way in this world. I have cried many days trying to figure out what to do, and "where are you God...I am hurting" God has shown his faithfulness daily, in giving me peace about it all. Knowing God is there for me is reassuring, it gives me confidence in knowing that no matter what else comes in life, He will be there just as faithful as ever!

God I pray that in the midst of my dark and troubled times that I will turn my face to you, that in all of it you will teach me to be faithful adn to be a woman of God that you want me to be. God, you are a faithful God, and I know that you will not always wave a magic wand and make everything okay, but despite that, you will always be faithful to me and my family. I pray God that you will help me to be a strong christian woman, a strong christian mother that will show my children that you are an awesome God and that we trust in you. Help us to love one another as you love the church, help me to be faithful to you and the promises in your word. It's in your wonderful name I pray, Amen

Turning Point

Q: Was there a turning point in your life when you said, enough is enough, you turned your back on your old life and started new?

I personally can look on a moment in time when I could honestly say that I was tired of living the life that I had and I was ready for the future...a new future. I got lost along the way from that day, but have quickly been set back on the right path by the greatest people in my life that truly love and care about me.

There are trying times in every one's life that can either send them straight to the bottom or to that old life, or it can change them forever for the good.

Lately I have felt very distant from God and I don't really know why. Could it be that I have so much hate for someone or that I just don't want to hear what He has to say to me. All I know is that when God leads us to the edge of a cliff, we will either choose to trust that He will catch us when we fall or teach us how to fly. I wanted to let my friends and family know that God will shift things around for you today, and let things work in your favor. If you believe and trust in the only one that can close doors no man can open and open doors no man can shut...He can do amazing things in your life!I read this quote this morning and it touched me deep down to my soul "When you reach the end of your rope, you will find the hem of His garment" SO VERY TRUE! Life will throw you curve balls, life will bring heartache and sorrow...but know that through the stinging pain all you have to do is reach out and just simply touch the hem of His garment like the very ill woman in the bible. She was desperate for healing and fighting through the crowd she barely touched the hem of Jesus' garment and she was healed. In that crowd of people he stopped, turned around and asked who it was that touched him. It could have been many people just brushing up against him, but He knew the distinct touch of desperation!

I pray that today if you are in a situation of desperation that you will reach out to Him for healing, for peace. You may be holding onto regret about something that happened many years ago...the time has come to let it go. I pray as a friend that I will stand by you every step of the way, I will be here to help you. I will hold you up when you can't stand, I will wipe the tears when you need to cry.

Now is the time to look to the future and stop holding on to what you could not change. God has a plan for you and has known what is in store for you from the day you were born.

Today is a new day....embrace it and if there are changes that need to be made...DO IT!!